hey glorb i've been there, i have REALLY been where you are. it can and will get better. the human brain is a beautiful thing, it's the universe observing part of itself. but it can also trick you into thinking things will always be this bad. they will not necessarily always be this bad. it's hard for you to accept that now, i know, but please know from someone who stuck around : my life is so much more beautiful than i could have ever imagined. there are so many wonderful people out there in the world, who unbeknownst to either of you will be a great friend to you.

i hope things get better for you. they can get better.