Everyday it always feels the same, like im trapped in an eternal cycle where for some time now ive wondered if my only escape is death...but its not, it going to take time, one last big hold out until i can finally be free, i need to escape this dead end shithole town, this empty country, theres an entire world out there, an entire universe, but will it ever be enough, there has to be more than this, even when im faced with what ive been told is infinity it still feels empty, its like ive become aware of the very nature of our reality, and that realisation of what it entails is more than what most men can bare, it feels some days like i am loosing my mind, but was it even truly there to begin with, was anything ever truly there, what if we are simply watching shadows on the wall while everything else exists outside of our cave, please let me out, i need to get out.