i have a lot of things to say but i mentally cant say them there is something blocking it in my mind for some reason i swear. and also a few people know me irl that is on this site and it is scary that i know im going to see them at school and it will be very awkward if i actually said the things i want to say, and this is just after an emotionally heavy(well for me) convesation i had with a friend that knowws me irl so i might jus tstill be recovering from that. i might just be undiagnosed from whatever mental illness i might have ig. oh well