I wish I could just not exist.
There's so many of people I've seen that don't get this feeling and think I'm suicidal or just perceive it as a form of depression or sadness, and yet I'm not sad.
I don't regret living, nor do I wish to actively die.
I even have friends and family I care for, and events and fun things I want to do in the future.
I simply just do not fear death.
When I walk into that endless nothingness I will do so gladly knowing that my life has already had at least some of an impact on some people, much like the several billion before me that aren't in history books or known about.
I will be one in a many and have fulfilled my meaning of life being human.
I await patiently for death to come for me and I will be glad when it does, for I'll know my job of living is finally done and that I tried my best, even if it wasn't ever enough, I did it.
And then I can sit there in the sleep of nothingness, enjoying the comfort of non-existence, right beside the other 30 billion humans who died before me.