I might not be able to answer this question since i don't for you guys but it change a lot over this time and moods. so ill respond with my favorite singer which is Ren Gill, he's from the UK. I relate to his music because describe a state of mentale misery that i could feel in the past. see he got sick at the age of 19 (he caught Lyme) and was wrong diagnozed as deppressed, which he eventually got after 6 years of desease. during that time he couldn't get out of his room and the only thing that kept him surviving is making music. then a doctor discover the real issue and Ren did a cell transplant in canada and recovered (theres stil sequells). also his best friend killed himself and recently he got partially blind because of an infection. he also experienced hallucinations multiple times. so, here's the vibe, and the music is sick