I don’t want to be normal, don’t worry, though I agree, it would be so much easier. I’ve seen what “normal” means though, and I’ve seen “normal” shift into something more terrifying and abhorrent than ever before. The lack of empathy currently running rampant across the world, especially online, is horrifying, even more so when it translates into real-world violence and harm, and yet it’s becoming normalised.
I’ve never felt normal, and I am now more disconnected from it than ever.
I’ve also never felt entirely human. I now feel the same way about humanity as I do about normality. Disconnected from it, scared of it, and somewhat disgusted by it.
In my head, to be human is to harbour so much hatred and anger, to need a scapegoat, to manipulate and destroy in the name of “progress” and “normality”.
I’m frightened, and I feel so alone, because I don’t want to be like that, I want to be good and kind and loving and helpful. I want to make the world a better place, but how can I when it seems against me?
I’ve never felt normal, and I am now more disconnected from it than ever.
I’ve also never felt entirely human. I now feel the same way about humanity as I do about normality. Disconnected from it, scared of it, and somewhat disgusted by it.
In my head, to be human is to harbour so much hatred and anger, to need a scapegoat, to manipulate and destroy in the name of “progress” and “normality”.
I’m frightened, and I feel so alone, because I don’t want to be like that, I want to be good and kind and loving and helpful. I want to make the world a better place, but how can I when it seems against me?
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