as someone who is older than you and knows many people who work on the improvement and saving of the world i can assure you: course correction is coming. it just happens more quietly, generally, when it is happening TO you rather than reading about it happening to someone else. a bit like waking up and realising you can breathe through both nostrils now after a month long stubborn illness.

highly recommend looking for local places that might need a little help ie soup kitchens or library programs. you'll see it most easily there. idk if this came across as Old Monster Talking Down To You but i hope not. it's just my knee jerk response to people going through what you're going through and you deserve assurance and kindness