today has been an eventful day to say the least.. and its only 1pm. i hope things slow down soon.. schools in germany are closed for two weeks from today. im also officially not a student anymore since yesterday. ill have to enjoy the time i have with my friends from school during these two weeks. people come into my life and leave too quickly. and for someone that hates losing people in any way, it feels like a punch to the face every single time. even if these people did horrible things not only to me, but to me even more importantly, my friends. no one in this fucked up situation is innocent and i hate how hundreds of people if not thousands, are now of the conclusion that there is an innocent side. the lies and deceit from some of the closest people to me for the past year, have once again shown me that trust shouldnt be given out. it really has to be earned. at the same time it showed me that said trust is way too easily earned with me and that i need to work on that. truly be wary of every person.