I'm so sorry you feel like this :(
If it makes you feel any better, there are so many people feeling exactly the same. Solving loneliness epidemic takes at least two, which I know is so hard, especially in a world where communities are basically non existent in a "progressive world".
Just know that people are there and they need you as much as you need them.
Giving you a digital hug โ—(แต”แต•แต”)โ—œ