I've come to the realisation that there aren't many actually compassionate people out there quite some time ago. I hate the way that speech binds thought so firmly, that I cannot express all I ought in the few words people choose to listen to. I don't believe myself to be a good person, truly. But, in some sense, if you only ever act like the thing you want to become, are you not just that?

I feel like such a tool, like I'm only there to carry everyone else's thoughts and feelings with me, unable to speak for myself. My observations and intuition is often incredibly accurate, it seems to perfectly pinpoint the issue and force others to face and overcome it. So why am I not enough? Is it egotistical of me to think these things if I am not truly omniscient? People like to think that I am. I don't feel like anyone even tries to actually see me. The purpose I serve is all I am worth to the world.