hi people. „i havent but i might“. how am i supposed to ever trust you again after you said something like that? and how is it that i still love you. i really hope my lungs are gonna be okay. i have a doctors appointment this morning. need to be there in 5 hours but im not the least bit tired. thoughts sometimes are too much. because i feel like a burden when venting nowadays and writing diaries/my feelings down alone is depressing i have started to write lyrics instead. atleast i can make meaning out of them. instead of the same thing over and over again making me even more depressed.