my last boy asked me why i didnt interrupt him when he spoke bs or when i had something to say and i didnt really know how to explain it

but after i decided to cut contact with him i remembered why cause my hopeless excuse for a father is impossible to hold a conversation with unless i am completely complacent and obedient with him, i cant have any opinions or thoughts about anything without being ridiculed

anyway in a way i guess that made me much more cautious and 'calculated' than i would have been otherwise, making me a more understanding and compassionate in turn, but its hard to find my voice