is it my fault for not doing jack shit to transition? am i just a coward for not doing diy hrt? am i just a pretending piece of shit who wants attention? what the fuck do i do, i'm tired, there are 5 years of uni ahead and 5 more years of mandatory work to pay off my education. do i even have any real skills? am i just a narcissistic pretentious asshole who finds self worth only in feeling superior and smart because i use quirky software? i'll never pass. i'm not even trying because i'm a lazy, cowardly fuck who finds it's easier to give up than to actually try doing something about her problems for once in their life. and even now i'm just crying to some anonymous strangers online like a little bitch instead of doing something useful. fuck. i'm sorry, i'm not even strong enough not to post this and not to be an attention whore. i'm fucking sorry. fuck