did anyone else live as a trans (mtf/ftm) person for several years and actually have some supportive friends until some asshole came along and groomed you into believing they are the only person there for you and you are the one for them? and then when you came out to them they told you that they were straight and didnt want to be gay for you and asked you to stop? even when you told them several other genuinely concerning things that could have hospitalised you? and then you reverted back to pretending to be cis so that they would like you back but they already started dating a pretentious asshole less than 5 days later after repeatedly telling you that you are the only person they will ever love? did you then move towns because your parents convinced you too that to fully become "normal" you need to drop all your friends? and then you pass as "normal" easily enough but you no longer have any sense of identity while your groomer is still desperately trying to contact you and tell you details of his sex life?