ive been sighing a lot

also had a dream where this guy was asking me if i wanted to hook up with him

and usually i hate the idea, ive been SAd yk, but this time i felt so okay with it, i trusted him

dreams are centered around strong subconscious emotions btw..

they beat a guy to death in front of my high school once

now im in another country in uni

its much nicer living here but i feel like being exposed to all that violence for that long changes you too much to completely move on

like i know what psychology advises i do, but sometimes i protest against the voice in my head telling me to make the healthy choice