Truthfully, it's just difficult for me to grasp that I am wanted by other people - both in the platonic & romantic sense.

And I'm very afraid of messing things up with my new crush ;-;

Super valid. I have been dealing with that myself, taking to kindness from others as something of which I am unworthy... Which we know, logically, is a lie. As hard as it is, we must remember that we are loved, even if that's be telling the people who love you what you're going through so they can remind you of that fact. o7 Godspeed, sailor