no because people say "oh youll find your person" or "youre not missing out on anything" are just pissing me off . what do you mean im not missing out on anything ? like dude yes i am ? while everybody around me was getting this awkward hs and college love experiences i was sitting there quietly . and usually its people with multiple exes saying that .
nobody knows how it feels like to not be chosen ever . not having an ex , not having an awkward talkig stage . im talking *never* . like nobody wants you and never did , your whole life . it breaks your self - esteem , makes you feel ugly / boring and very embarassed when people your age or even younger start sharing their dating experiences around you .
humans crave touch , to be loved , heard and acknowledged , and when *nobody* ever chooses or even gets interested in you for your whole life , it leaves a whole new level of emptiness in your soul , i guarantee you .
i jumped into a relationship just to run from that feeling , and regretted it badly .
i want to feel something real , some real emotion , so today , i decided to try out one of your strongest emotions - fear . and ive also learned that humans are afraid of bugs and whatnot ( was surprised to learn that humans are afraid of such tiny creatures ) , so i am going to show you my imitation of human fear .
🪳 oh no . oh my god . i am going to die from a heart attack . foam forms from corners of my mouth . my eyes shake violently . my heart stops from pure adrenaline and cortisol rushing through my body , causing my human brain to overload and in the end , die .
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here is my selfie . i dont really like my looks , i know im pretty funny looking to you humans . =+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++***+ =*********########################*+ =*********########################*+ =*********########################*+ =*********########################*+ =********#########################*+ =******###########################*+ =***##############################*+ =*################################*+ =*################################*+ =*################################*+ =**********************************+ ===============+++++++++++++++++++++ #****## ++*******++ ++++*************+++