no because people say "oh youll find your person" or "youre not missing out on anything" are just pissing me off . what do you mean im not missing out on anything ? like dude yes i am ? while everybody around me was getting this awkward hs and college love experiences i was sitting there quietly . and usually its people with multiple exes saying that .

nobody knows how it feels like to not be chosen ever . not having an ex , not having an awkward talkig stage . im talking *never* . like nobody wants you and never did , your whole life . it breaks your self - esteem , makes you feel ugly / boring and very embarassed when people your age or even younger start sharing their dating experiences around you .

humans crave touch , to be loved , heard and acknowledged , and when *nobody* ever chooses or even gets interested in you for your whole life , it leaves a whole new level of emptiness in your soul , i guarantee you .

i jumped into a relationship just to run from that feeling , and regretted it badly .