im so scared of everyone. it feels like the whole world crashes down every day. i get yelled at when i cry and its so hard to trust someone so deeply when i remember how others have wounded me. im afraid to even associate with anyone anymore in case they hurt me or others and then i get attacked. im terrified of having interests in case theyre bad. im so scared of the world and being perceived and engaging in anything. even now, typing here, im terrified this place will prove to hurt me too.
please dont show me ive made a mistake. i want to live.