yeah playing for fun is generally the strat to even become better in the first place im not going to lie. i know exactly what you mean with that miserable state lmao. i was for the first 2-3 years extremely focused on ranks and whatnot and ruined my fun like that. then started playing to have fun not earn fun and everything just fell into place. mania is the first vsrg i played (besides piano tiles) and love the cancer these mappers create. ill probably stick with it and at some point play 7k cause that shit looks extremely fun. my accounts name is chiller in case you wanna check it out.