well, ig at least I have that going for me! My personality, for better or for worse is free of any influence from substances. Truth be told, I've only ever had alcohol three times throughout my life, all in the last year. The first can ever was a heineken which was fine? I was hoping it'd get me drunk so I sat through the yeasty taste only for me to finish the whole can and feel nothing, then, a few months later, I had white wine with a few roommates, didn't enjoy that much, and finally I had a wiskey coke in a can from a supermarket near by...but I drank it so slowly that it too had no effect on me. Those are not good odds lmao
but that's all I got for any kind of substance use.
I wanted to try smoking a cigarette but then I heard that first timers can even end up puking from them and I was immediately put off the idea/desire.

also, yeah, its been the same with me every night. I say I'm gonna sleep early, sometimes I'm very exhausted and yet somehow I keep staying up till like 3 or 4 am. help. ToT

That's dope yo! It's good to be informed but at a distance from drug/alcohol culture; the last thing you want is to be an impaired backseat passenger to your own life.

I do not understand the appeal of alcohol now as an adult; that shit takes like straight ASS ヽ(✿ﾟ▽ﾟ)ノ I do smoke cigarettes on and off, and would recommend that you never try it. Risk to reward payoff is incredibly suboptimal

I feel you on that; gonna try my best to hit the sack early, but we'll see how that goes LOL

we got this (maybe)! (〃￣︶￣)人(￣︶￣〃)

Im already addicted to youtube and being on the internet and I think thats about all the addictions I can handle for now.

Right? Alcohol tastes like ass and im thinking there has to be a reason everyone loves drinking that shit but I just cant seem to find any...i mean I havent tried lots of other alcohols but so far theyve all been kinda ass.

Cigarettes look cool, people smoking can look hot...in fact sometimes I chew my gum like its a cigarette. I chew Trident, those long stick gums, so it kinda works out. Thats about all for the cool factors of smoking a cigarette that I can think of, bht i wouldnt mind socially smoking tho...

Best of luck for getting an early sleep lmao

Im probably just gonna sleep late again hehe

I like the night too much unfortunately.

But, good night tho! Have the greatest dreams in the histroy of dreams!

If there's any alcohols to try, its fancy cocktails with blue curacao, grenadine, or muddled fruits ( •̀ ω •́ )✧ i had one that was vodka, butterfly pea powder, and lemon and that shit slapped my tits clean off and into flavourtown

i got lots of friends that only smoke in social settings hehe; i would be lying if i said it wasn't enjoyable sometimes LOL

thank you! my aim is 2am at the latest, but we shall see ╰(*°▽°*)╯ i hope you have peak nighttime vibes if you do go full owl tonight !!!

ooh, you can only really get those at bars tho, right?
rip

I haven't been to any bars yet- I really want to find a small hole-in-the-wall type place that plays jazz, where there's almost no one, its just the few regulars and me and the bartender. Basically a bar straight out of a murakami novel, or a noir film.

I've heard that about cigarettes, actually. That they give diminishing returns, the buzz of a cigarette gets weaker and weaker and so a smoker ends up smoking more and more to get that same buzz, but it eventually gets to a point where only a small fraction of the cigarettes give you the buzz you're looking for, the rest you just gotta smoke for "maintenance". Learning that has also kinda put me off of trying. Just feels pointless...

actually I lied, I have another addiction - caffeine, but at least caffeine products taste good tho.

I won't keep you up past 2 am, tonight!
I probably will end up falling asleep at 4 am myself.

I did get it at a bar, however it would be really easy to make yourself if you were so inclined! (a small revision, it may have been gin)

If you're near to Ottawa, I've heard there's a lot of speakeasy style bars in Montreal; I haven't been to them myself, but know a couple people who have had very positive things to say about the scenes there!

That's pretty much the case with cigarettes; if I smoke 3+ days in a row, it's a whole lot of nothing. You'd probably get a better buzz by going outside, holding your breath and spinning around until you're dizzy.

Second that on the caffeine; though I'm not addicted, that shit be tasting good af. Are you a regular cafe-goer or at at-home caffeine drinker?

And fair enough; I will give you a dream shout at 4am when you're about to snooze. If you see a particularly long blade of grass, it's probably me

I'll look out for a long blade of grass in my dream world tonight and wave hello when I find one!

hmm some day, I'll make some at home.
I do live in ottawa lmao
I haven't looked too deep into the scene here, but if there are speakeasy style bars around, I'd be keen on checking them out, tho, idk how people view going to a bar alone...like is that an okay thing to do? or is it like a super sad thing to do?

lmao I have actually heard about holding your breath and spinning around in relation to smoking before. Is that a common thing people do?

well, tbf im not really addicted anymore. I have one coffee a day, and on some days none at all. Its not exactly a necessity, but that may be because I went off-caffeine altogether like a few days ago, for a whole week. That did help, I no longer have daily cravings for coffee or chai. ig it doesn't help that I make my own coffee at home so all the ingredients are there all the time. Dalgona coffee is just so good!!

I have found a few cafes in downtown ottawa which are pretty cool and I hang out there every now and then...might go to one of them tomorrow actually.

Going to a bar alone is totally fine, you'd be surprised at how many people go just to have a couple drinks after work, listen to the music / watch sports on the TV, and chill before they go home (hence why the row or barstools by the bartender work). Bars, cafe's, and restaurants are normal; I would say clubs are the only one that's slightly weirder.

I had no idea there was actually a connection outside my imagination; I just pulled that one out of my butt since I figured it'd be the same !

Ohh that's dope dude! Kudos to you for being able to do a mini detox; it's a socially acceptable addiction, which makes it harder to quit sometimes, so that's dope. I've never tried dalgona coffee, but it definitely looks delicious (☆▽☆)

That's awesome hehe, cafe culture in Ontario is really good I have to say-- so many unique, locally operated places everywhere, so you always have something new to try.