hello people, i havent visited this site in nearly a month.. lotta shit has happened. today ill be visiting this girl i got set up with by my friends from a city a little further out. about an hour twenty in total from my place to their city. shes absolutely worth it though. we‘ve talked a week through nonstop theres been many hints too. im very excited to the point of anxiousness. i know itll be fine though. we understand eachother a lot. since my last upload, i just remembered, i broke up with my manipulative cheating ex too! it felt very freeing. my lungs have been starting to feel better over the past few days too. im really glad. i still havent went to the doctor though.. i dont know. i think ill be fine. i still need to text my dad.. i dont know why i ghost the people i love. i dont understand myself in many aspects. i wish i would. well, i guess i might one day, but until then ill have to experience life the way it is. thats part of it all. im happy yet a little melancholic. i love you guys.