it feels terrible having to explain that no, I don't have a phone number, no, I didn't finish highschool, and no, I'm not looking for jobs. Like did they think I was joking the first time? No, I actually am not a functional adult. I have no income or bank account or diploma. I entirely rely on other people without providing any benefit to them. I am actually that bad. My hopelessness isn't some pretence of modesty or irrational complex from a capable individual, it is the result of living through profound self-disappointment repeatedly. It's expecting realistically of someone who consistently fails to even come close to the bare minimum.