id like to start writing but i seriously cant . i read lots of books and my vocabulary is quite big , but every time i write i cannot let go of the feeling that im like a 13 yo girl writing fanfics about her classmates . and even if i overcome this feeling , write something and then look down at it , it just seems so stupid to me that all i wanna do it tear / delete it all . i wish i could write and not feel stupid about it . i wrote 2 chapters of my characters' lore but i dont even wanna open it after publishing it because i cringe real bad . with all respect to writers tho .