you know even if i am a loser and a failure, little 14 year old me would be so happy and excited to see who I've become. she would be ecstatic to be a weed smoking lesbian and for all her interests and small joys to be so common in our life. She didn't hope for much, just freedom and love. for all else im doing and have done wrong, for all my fuck ups, SHE'S proud of me. And if I can look back on myself during my most vulnerable, scared, beated down and broken and know that she would be happy and proud of me then I gotta be doing SOMETHING right.