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sleepy_clement 🌟

Coding's fucking epic. Egregious closet case irl, he/they would be grand on here though if y'all don't mind. Wildly ace, so please don't flirt with me if that's ok :) Kinda shit at ASCII art but might as well practice here. i am an adult

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sleepy_clement 🌟 2026-05-29 17:22 🇦🇺
Fuck I need someone to bully me into checking the work chat because I've been sick and having a bit of a mental breakdown for 2 weeks (work hasn't started up again yet but it will v soon) and I have so much shit to take care offffff fuckkkk I'm a mistake against god lol
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sleepy_clement 🌟 2026-05-24 09:10 🇦🇺
#vent, pls avoid if you are having a bad day. I hope your days have been alright :)








Every day I am stuck in my head, forcibly replaying the things that have happened, the things that will happen if I fuck up, the ways they could try to kill me (maybe again, if *that* incident counted). It bleeds into the real world, it stains the walls, I can't scrub it free. I'm in a fucky little groundhog day - the future is meaningless and nothing I can do could budge it.
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sleepy_clement 🌟 2026-05-23 17:12 🇦🇺
How do you digest guilt?
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sleepy_clement 🌟 2026-05-23 14:54 🇦🇺
I wish I was one of the flying foxes that flits over the city's amber sky. They are free. I am chained to a life with no future by familial obligations. I am just an extension of the family name, a cancerous tumour, not a person.

Even if I was fully human, leaving in these conditions would be a travesty, what with academics discussing to what extent the war my sister, my nephew, my extended family are living through is fucked, whether certain actions taken against half of my ethnic background by the other half of my ethnic background, the half I was raised was actually important and not a backwards mire, could count as genocidal. We the diaspora must now stick together; abandoning them or being queer would be viewed by them as a fucking abomination, I know from experience. I fear the family'll eventually pressure me into marriage to a dude I would be unable to love, and continue the family line.

Sometimes I dream of our old, stupid plan to flee to Paris and build a life with her. We haven't talked in eons.
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sleepy_clement 🌟 2026-05-23 14:20 🇦🇺
Would it be shitty of me to ask or make a personal-ish, slightly sad question/post on here btw? No worries if not, just curious
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sleepy_clement 🌟 2026-05-14 15:30 🇦🇺
So I was browsing old soviet properties but on ice because I remembered a scene in one where, in an amateur production of the three musketeers musical on ice, a bunch of nuns skate in a dim auditorium over a song about how they want to date soldiers and experience wordly things. While looking for that, turns out there was a professional russian 2012 on ice adaptation of the musical, complete with backflips and horses??? If anyone knows where I could find that I would love to know, subs aren't necessary (my family's from ukraine so I speak russian)
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sleepy_clement 🌟 2026-05-09 10:11 🇦🇺
Haven't been on in forever, neat to see new people on :)
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sleepy_clement 🌟 2026-03-22 12:34 🇦🇺
I hate wanting to get myself a nice snack to be happy, and instead of sticking to the routine that makes you happy, trying something new, only for the something new to be grey, tasteless sludge, despite claiming to be pistachio icecream.
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sleepy_clement 🌟 2026-03-20 09:15 🇦🇺
God I adore faculty who email in comic sans, I am not being sarcastic, it's just iconic
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sleepy_clement 🌟 2026-03-02 11:07 🇦🇺
How do you cope with that permeating sense of dissatisfaction that comes pre-installed with life? The feeling that your body is off, your thought processes are off, that everything is hollow and meaningless because you aren't doing well enough? Achievements only elate for 5 minutes and then bring constant, unyielding shame that you could and should be even better, even if you're nipping at the heels of the best or are the best in a category?

Friendships feel empty, even if they're close, and nothing actually makes you happy. You wake up and go to bed running on guilt and obligation, not joy or any feelings of want. Anything you do like gets tainted with guilt and shame and dissatisfaction immediately. Colours feel muted, and things don't feel real.

Is this all there is to the rest of life?
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sleepy_clement 🌟 2026-03-01 05:29 🇦🇺
concussion symptoms last longer than a week. fun. javascript somehow makes more sense to code in when concussed.
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sleepy_clement 🌟 2026-02-22 10:01 🇦🇺
i feel mildly guilty because our lecturer keeps stressing how much we need to watch the online lectures week-by-week and i immediately didn't because i got a concussion by getting bonked in the head a bit by a bus and was too ill to watch the lectures but like that's not a good enough reason lolll
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sleepy_clement 🌟 2026-02-22 09:45 🇦🇺
<o> <o> - does the cult accept women only or are brothers allowed
. . (also, what have i missed? not feeling well and have only
\_____/ 5 mins to spend on the site today so don't have
\_^_/ time/energy to go hunting sadly :( )
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sleepy_clement 🌟 2026-02-22 09:33 🇦🇺
heyo, how's everyone's week been? hopefully good?
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sleepy_clement 🌟 reposted 2026-02-18 11:28 🇦🇺
I say this and immediately dip. I am no longer on holiday, I am very busy, will probs only see me once a week on my day allotted for breaks. Miss y'all! Stay sane please
sleepy_clement 🌟 2026-02-15 02:01 🇦🇺
it's been a lot quieter on here this week than earlier, is it just me?
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sleepy_clement 🌟 2026-02-15 02:01 🇦🇺
it's been a lot quieter on here this week than earlier, is it just me?
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sleepy_clement 🌟 2026-02-14 10:41 🇦🇺
hey, weird q from someone trying to figure out if they're aro or not, what does romantic love feel like?
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sleepy_clement 🌟 2026-02-14 09:41 🇦🇺
underscores' wallsocket album is fantastic honestly
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sleepy_clement 🌟 2026-02-14 09:37 🇦🇺
<o> <o>
. . - happy valentine's day, from the char.monster
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V|V
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sleepy_clement 🌟 2026-02-14 08:55 🇦🇺
hey so fun fact, according to version 1.2 of the file format specification for PNGs (accessed here https://www.libpng.org/pub/png/spec/1.2/PNG-Introduction.html), PNG isn't pronounced "pee-en-gee".

It's supposed to be pronounced "ping".

What the fuck.
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